Anxiety. It can present itself every now and again.
I seem to express and manage with this the ‘modern way’ buy changing my photographs on social media in a panicked state.
I remember this feeling of anxiety and I try to reassure myself that I am NOT back there again (sick) but am not always entirely convinced of this in the moment that it occurs.
So I lose myself to dread and terror! Oh the dread! Oh the terror!
I have noticed a pattern whereby every few months I have a day or two of the same alarming emotions. Where I can go from feeling wonderfully confident and optimistic to soul-crushing self-doubt in just a few minutes flat.
But once the cloud lifts (usually the next day after I have had some sleep and hopefully stayed off social media) I feel stronger than before. I feel anew, almost like my anxiety is one of the last elements of my illness leaving me once and for all.
And this is a good and most welcome thing.