Looking beautiful and feeling beautiful are two entirely different things.
You see you can wear the prettiest of dresses and shoes
and have the most ravishing hair and make-up
which bring a million compliments from kind-hearted people that do temporarily help.
"Ky, you are so beautiful. I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it."
Thank-you so much for saying so.
I take these words from others and hold onto them like my life depends on it
- because at times it seems it does.
But in the end I am left with that feeling,
of not feeling beautiful.
And fixing the reasons behind why I don't seems impossible.
And working on this is recovery.
And at times slight relapse.
But most of all recovery.