Still Hopeful

When you are used to falling apart for so long - living again takes practice.  In this new time I feel almost as if some part of me that used to be there is now gone and it takes a certain amount of strength to keep going. This is the part where I need to be the strongest I have ever been and at times I feel very alone in this process.  I have become a little less naive about the world and at the same time more trusting of myself.  It is safe to say all I have been through has changed me in profound ways that I am only just now coming to terms with.  Some days it would be easier to hide away from the world but that’s just not my way of doing things anymore. The eating-again part seems somewhat 'easy' in comparsion to trying to re-build myself and my life currently.  I feel so blessed to be at this stage in recovery but sometimes I can still be overwhelmed by each step of this journey. ♥